This is how I have felt lately. Running this way and that - mostly
dropping kids off at activities or picking them up or taking them to the
orthodontist or dentist, or shopping for groceries......Does it end?
Ever? I look at my schedule, and it has been crazy lately - three
concerts in a week's time, rehearsals, soccer games/practices, scout
service projects, and on and on. Sometimes I would just like to stay
home all day and work on stuff, but even when I am home, I am taking
James to the bathroom every 20 minutes. Yes, he has expressed interest
in potty training, and I am all for getting him out of the diapers! But
it is so....tedious. I feel like I am being pulled in 15 different
directions, and being pulled thin in every way except physically (where I
seem to be growing at an alarming rate). And just when I feel like I
can't go anymore, I pull out my scriptures and read this:
I am reminded that this is the season of my life. The day will come
when my children will all be in school or out of the house, and I will
wish for these moments with them - some of our best conversations have
happened in the car. And what greater work could I be doing than
shepherding these children and helping them to know that they are the
most important things in my life. Yes, my life revolves around their
schedules and their needs, but that is where my life SHOULD be right
now. So bring on the loads of laundry, tell me last minute that you
need me to take you somewhere or that you need a batch of brownies for
your class project. That is what I am here for, and I hope I will never
forget it! Gordon B. Hinckley said, "You will come to know that what
appears today to be a sacrifice will prove instead to be the greatest
investment that you will ever make." I am investing into the miracles
that are my children, and I pray that my efforts can be focused in the
right places to help them grow into the people they are needed to be.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Stepping Stone or Stumbling Block
On Saturday, we watched a movie called "The Croods". It was a good movie with a good message, and I appreciated how it focused on the family and showed the importance of unity in the family and how that can be achieved. There was one thing that got me thinking. The father of the family sees it as his responsibility to protect the family, so his motto is "Never not be afraid". He recites this to his family, and they recite it back. And it has kept them safe, whereas other families have not been so lucky. Yet there was one scene where the family is separated, and they are trying to find their way through a maze of tunnels to be reunited on the other side. One of the children, the rebellious daughter who has always fought against her father's mantra, has no trouble navigating the tunnels, even delights in what she finds along the way. Her brother, however, who tried very hard to follow in his father's footsteps and make him proud, has a moment where he seems paralyzed by the fear that his father has instilled in him. As a matter of fact, before they head through the tunnels, the father again reiterates, "Never not be afraid", and the son hears it and stops, wondering what to do. New was bad for them, so he was afraid to take a step into the dark, to get through something new and different in order to find a better home for their family.
The thought that ran through my head was, "What have I
instilled in my children? Will it be a
help or a hindrance to them when they venture out on their own? Will my
words and my teachings help them to
make it through the maze of this world so that our family can be
reunited on
the other side?" I don't want our
teachings, our traditions, our family culture or habits to be a
stumbling block
for my children to progress and become the people they need to be. I
want them to be stepping stones that will
help them to find their way to be better than their parents, to be a
spring
board to help them soar to new heights that we haven't even imagined for
them. I want everything that I do to lead them to Christ, to help them
know that His love can change our lives. That is the great mission of
this phase of my life, and I need to do better. The scripture says,
"We talk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we
prophesy of Christ, and we write according to our prophecies, that our
children may know to what source they may look for a remission of their
sins." (2 Ne. 25:26) Do my children know that I rely on the Lord in
times of trial, that I thank Him for His many blessings, that I turn to
Him when I feel like there is nowhere else to go? Do I incorporate the
example of the Savior in my life so that they know that I follow after
Him?
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